Post Op Meltdown & Day 1

Everything happened so fast. I didn’t have time to process it. Well, I had a meltdown. I felt guilty and upset. How could I do this to my baby? What if it comes back and I tortured her with this surgery for nothing
Surgeon asked me .. Do you want to visit her? I was afraid. What am I going to see? What if she gets too excited to see me and I can’t take her home? All these thoughts going through my head. But when nurse said maybe you can try to feed her, those thoughts went out the window. I had to go. When I got there, her tail wagged. She could not balance on 3 legs yet and had to be carried. I held her and my mom hand fed her… At that moment, I realized things are not going to be the same.. I am going to have to work on this and learn how to support her and make the best of it. I was glad I went and scheduled time for the following day to feed her breakfast!